intimacy

- bodily confession (so touch that confesses, without speaking)

- the gaze

there’s a great deal that goes on between people that isn’t just about speaking and listening.

We often talk about the idea of confession as something that is spoken and heard. I’m trying to look at the idea that a lot goes on that’s conveyed through touch.’

https://www.list.co.uk/article/18233-the-garden-of-adrian/

"I see it as my responsibility to make the audience feel really at home"

Seeing that adrian uses a lot of touch - why is that elizabeth says it is first and foremost a visual medium?

https://edinburghfestival.list.co.uk/article/19163-interactive-theatre-at-the-fringe/

a Russian folktale is told while an audience’s feet are tickled in the dark - haha that sounds fun

"a production where hearing, not seeing, is believing"

The Smile Off Your Face. Unlike its predecessor, in which the audience was blindfolded and tied to a wheelchair

But can this sort of close-up theatre ever really be a fulfilling experience for the audience – or is it merely an exercise in discomfort? ‘I think it’s really interesting that a lot of people think they have to steel their courage in order to come to a one-to-one,’ says Howells. ‘Of course I understand the nervousness about what you think you’re going to have to reveal or expose, and that you don’t want to be humiliated or embarrased. But really, with me, it’s just about meeting another human being.’

I understand this fear. i think we all wear masks. and as much as i can say only good days i have an open body and energy toward people - when i'm on stage - i still do the escaping - the not living in the moment. and as much as i came up with this idea for others - it's actually helps me a lot with what i'm struggling with as an actor - staying in the moment. - going deeper instead of running and hiding. Is there a fear of being known in my weaknesses? Why? is there a fear of being judged? But Jesus has broken my need for man's approval for me.

so i guess as much as it is for them, i'm meeting them - we are both on equal levels - meeting each other in the middle requires courage on both sides.

Held, which involves 30 minutes of silence in which the audience member and performer spoon each other, fully clothed, on a bed. Yet making his audience comfortable has always been a priority.

‘It’s very important to make people feel empowered,’ Howells explains. ‘That’s a particular danger in one-to-one work. You really have to make it clear that there is not some agenda that the audience has to stick to. I don’t want people to feel in any way coerced into something that they’re not a willing participant in.’

But the balance between making the audience comfortable and uncomfortable has been a fine one in Internal, which has to date been performed in Belgium, the Netherlands and Sweden. Smet says: ‘If it’s too cosy and a bit superficial, then you have to ask, “Why make a performance like this?” So we really try to make people feel comfortable, but on the other hand we go a little deeper so that it becomes uncomfortable and actually starts to offer a more profound experience.’ 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=paHf7Dfaky4

"butoh begins with the abandonment of the self."

 the gentle passion that was at the heart of his life and work is reflected in their tentative, nuanced explorations of ideas.

"defining its interest in a personal interaction: while acknowledging this expressed his personal worries about a lack of intimacy, the generosity of his performance ensured that it was neither selfish nor self-indulgent."

"If there were always hints of melancholy in his shows, it was an expression of his unflinching honesty."

there have been many times wen i have checked into the present moment in my training that i feel what i think this is - a deep sense of awareness, a unopinionated mix of poignancy and tinge of sadness but not trying to fix it - i think it is related to how we all know and sense that this life it it's unredeemed state is inherently a tragedy.

am i afraid of making my work personal? am i afraid that one or two lecturers who seem to have more opinions than respect for me will judge my work without knowing my person? I don't know...

confessional theatre?

emotional vulnerability?

exploring the potential foe silence allow pole to go deeper into themselves  -eye contact exchange and touch

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SLwD3APw2F8